I’ve been blogging for nearly a year and a half now. Where the bloody hell has time gone?!?
I’ve never been the most consistent of bloggers. Some months I’m fully in love with this little space on the internet and my little fingers can’t type out posts fast enough. Other times, I fall out of love with it and lose all motivation for keeping up with the whole internet thing.
Sadly, the internet is a fickle place and after a little absence, everyone seems to have forgotten you exist and it feels a little bit like you’re dragging an elephant up Everest when you do return.
For the last few months, I’ve considered packing in this whole blogging thing, moving to a farm and getting 50 dogs to keep me company. Am I crazy dog lady? LOUD AND PROUD, HUNNY! But the honest truth is if I gave up blogging I have no idea what I would do to keep me sane.
I split my time between working part-time in retail and doing freelance makeup. I do freelance makeup because it’s what I love and it’s where my passion lies. I do part-time retail to help make ends meet and save for a media makeup course in London.
This means I’m stuck in a bit of a cycle. I can’t do what I love full-time because I need a part-time job to save enough money for a course that allows me to get further education in the job I want to do full time. Ya with me so far?
I’m not really sure where I’m going with this post or if there’s a point I’m trying to make at all aaaaaaand I probably sound like a drunk girl you met in the bathroom of a sticky floored night club. But what I think I’m trying to say is, I’ve lost my mojo and I’m sure as heck going to do everything in my power to get it back.
I’ve been in a place of churning out content that’s less than perfect because I needed it to be out at a certain time, rather than missing a day of content and making a post amazing. I haven’t written a post I’m genuinely proud of for a long time and honestly haven’t written a post I’ve wanted to write for an even longer time. It’s always been what I should be doing or what I think the people reading my blog want and I think it shows in the writing, it shows in the pictures and it shows in a lack of motivation for blogging and that needs to change.
HEAR THAT GEMMA?!? I’M CALLING YOU OUT!
‘How do you intend to change?’ I hear you ask? Well, I’m changing thing up a little bit on here. I’m thinking a redesign and I’m officially only writing posts I want to write and when I want to write them. I’ve been so strict with myself to have a post each day of the week and have an editorial calendar mapped out until 2087 and the truth is, being one of these super organized got-my-life-together bloggers really just isn’t for me.
It entirely sucks the fun out of the only real hobby I have and when I’m working so hard to carve out my career path in my real, non-internet life, why put all this pressure on myself for my blog.
So, we’re bringing the fun back into blogging. Yes, there may be rambly posts like this one. Yes, there may be a full post dedicated to how cute my dog is. And yes, there may be posts all about the makeup industry that I know and love.
I’ve always strayed away from the super personal, rambly life posts and focused more on informative, beauty reviews. But where’s the fun in taking advice from an anonymous person behind a computer screen. For me, the beauty of blogging is listening to the thoughts and opinions from relatable people that could be your best friend or your sister. Otherwise, isn’t is exactly the same as a magazine? Who wants perfectly glossy photos and green juices with avocado on toast? #BringBackTheMirrorSelfie
Most probably won’t care or want to read this stuff, and that’s okay. Because this is my blog and I want to write about what I find fun to write about.
Soz and that.
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